9 September 2008, 9:43 am
I feel really guilty for saying this, but I am not looking forward to having my baby in December. I thought the feeling would pass after the first or second trimester but the third is just around the corner & I'm not excited at all. I actually dread the whole thing. I watched that movie (Waitress?) with Keri Russell in it and related so well. I'm just in no position to have another child. My situation with my only son is ok. He has a great dad, whom I have a strong friendship with. I'm still with the father of my baby but he's a horrible dad and no one I want to spend the rest of my life with. I'm afraid his lifestyle (drugs, booze, strippers, etc) has made me resent the baby. He has 3 kids already and he spoils them vs. taking care of them and treats me like the nanny. Leaving him means leaving his kids in a huge mess. I thought about an abortion but he told the kids I was pregnant before I could get an abortion, so I couldn't tell them I was having one. I would like to consider adoption but think that would really impact my son. I just want to be happy about having a baby and I really don't know how to do & I feel so guilty for not being happy..... Any suggestions? PS: I know I'm in a horrible relationship & my only option is to end it. I have to get a job first.... Read More »
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